Title : Change

Labels: Guidance

Title : what's the difference between sex and making love.

Sex, is when you're enjoying pleasure from other parties for the sake of it whereas Making Love, can be a simple make-out, which will eventually lead on to sex. But, Making Love involves two parties who love each other and are willing to not sell their bodies to anyone else other than their partners. Sex, is for the sake of pure pleasure and lust.

Title : what do guys look for in a girl?, what are the qualities that guys look for? To them what is important? looks or personality.

Personally, I don't have any requirements/standards for a girl.
Although, speaking from a general point of view, guys would usually go for someone;
1. Shorter than them.
2. Quite pretty, but not too pretty, too.
3. Hot body.
4. Not too much of a temperamental person.
5. Doesn't get jealous too easily if he should hang out w his other girl-friends.
6. Cares for him just as much and shows him that, too.

By far, those are th ones I could think of right now, and again, from a general point of view from a 18+yr old boy who's never had a girlfriend until now.

Title : Let's talk about 'Love'.

Title : when a girl kissed a boy

Yup today's random topic will be! What happens when a girl kissed a boy? Hmmmmm have you ever wonder? Well I do! :D

Do you wanna know what happens when a girl kissed a boy? Firstly, blushed, awkward and the boy will say "I just kissed a girl, on the lips(with the ^_________^ face)" LOL!

Well what makes me posting about this is because I was watching the Okto Movies "Haunted house(I think)" and ps: I think Okto is a good variety channel! Cartoons, movies, documentary, it's perfect I tell you. Okay back to it.

If a girl kissed me, I will sing Lady Gaga song, Just dance. LOL Nahh hahaha

So what do you think? If a girl kissed a boy, she will give that shy blushing expression with her cheeks turning pinkish and hesistation conversation like "Errmm so hmm" you know what I mean right? Hahaha LOL.

But what does that kiss meant for? Is it friendship kiss? Or I like you, you like me too? Or Just a kiss? Hmmmm comments ladies?? Hahahaha

Well, for boys, they will always think that oh the girl is into me! GU GU GA GA! Yes boys have this "PERASAN" attitude in them so yeah. They jump to conclusion always without asking or knowing why first and same goes to girls. :P So boys! Don't "perasan" too much okay? Or else the girl will say this to you "Eee jangan perasanlah!" LOL HAHAHA! I meant it in a good note btw. Hahaha

Title : i seek refuge in allah , shalah

Salam 'alaik!

I've something to share with you. It's about the Khusyu' in our prayers.
I believe many of us may have experience this during our prayers. When we are about to meet Allah, talk to Allah, something will pop out in our mind. Telling us that we forgot to do this and that. Or what we gonna do later. Believe me that is shaitan whispering to you.

Isn't it weird, it only happens when you are praying? You are reciting, yet your heart and mind are not khusyu'. You tend to think of the world than really focusing and concentrating in your prayers.

Why do we pray? Why? Is it just for the sake of accomplishing it? To ease the heart that you just fulfilling the obligatory? Well, that is not right. The Shalah is the greatest moment for us to connect to Allah, to seek His forgiveness, seeking his refuge, guidance and etc. We are talking to Him. Just Him Alone.

Therefore my Brothers and Sisters, I would to share with you this hadiths, about a devil, this one devil is always with us in our prayers to disturb us and whisper us to lead us astray from our focus in our prayers. It's name is Khinzib.

" Uthman ibn Abi Al-’Aas once came to the Messenger of Allah, saying, “O Messenger of Allah!
Satan has confused me and has prevented me from attending (or concentrating on) my prayer
and my reading (meaning reciting the Quran while praying).”

The Messenger of Allah said, “That is a devil called Khinzib. When you feel his presence,
seek refuge with Allah from him and blow to your left side thrice.”

Uthman then said, “I did that, and Allah then saved me from that devil.” [Muslim]. "

Remember to seek refuge in Allah whenever a whisper in your heart that tells you to do bad deeds. Insya'allah Allah is always protecting you. For He Alone we worship, He Alone we seek for help.

Allah is with you.

Title : About Life

something we always love to assume in life when we are down and feel that things are always unfair to us.

I must say, majority might say that life is unfair whenever they feel so down about themselve. But to think it again, its not unfair but life has always been a balance. It's us who change it, unbalance it, and also lead it to something we doesn't expect to happen to us but it did.

As a person who is born with akal,we are given a brain to think and also to analyse our doings and behaviours. God created us to think think think! We don't just do it like how nike say, Just do it. But we are to think a far, foresee what will happened if we do this and that. We are planners but God consent it. Still, if we chose the right path in life, things will be on the right track insya'Allah. It is us who chose the direction and we pray that we will be on the track that gives us fortune.


'Indeed, Allah does not change the condition of a people until they change it themselves(beginning from the heart)'
Surah Ar-Ra'd: verse 11


So please don't assume that life is unfair. It is you who made it unfair in your life and if you are feeling emotionally depressed seek help from God and pray to him for guidance and showing you the light for the right path in life. Cos you all know that in life, there are many challenges awaits for us to meet em.

Fret not my dear brothers and sisters in Islam :) Shower yourself with ibadah and amal that will not only help you feel calm but also feel that life is more than just living in it. There are reasons behind it as God created us with a reason and if you find yourself awake tomorrow that means that God still wants you to keep on searching of what you are looking for. Cos God is always fair.

Wallahualam.. :) I may not be good with words here and there but I would like to share my thoughts with some of you that we shouldn't be ego to ourself and listening to our Nafs and also be controlled by our emotion to much. Instead we should keep our prayers up and never fail to make a doa after our prayers. As we doa, we asked for his guidance and etc. But every doa comes with an effort to it.

Well that's all i would like to share with you brothers and sisters :) Bare with me with my language cos yes I know I'm not that superbly good with it. But I tried my best. :) I'm not a scholar or knows much but I share what I've learnt, heard and read.

When I have 1 knowledge(ilmu) and you have 1 knowledge, and together we exhange it. Now we have 2 knowledge and so it spreads. :)

Goodnight! :D

Wassalam ! :D

Title : Adab mendengar azan

I GOT THIS ONE VERY VERY VERY INTERESTING ABOUT A SIMPLE KNOWLEDGE AND BEEN PRACTICING IT. WE MAY HAVE BEEN TOLD WHEN LITTLE OR PERHAPS HEARD OF WHAT TO DO AND DON'T WHEN WE HEARD IT. HOWEVER AS WE GREW UP, WE TEND TO FORGET ABOUT IT. SO LET THIS BE A GENTLE REMINDER FOR YOU AND ME.

IT IS ABOUT "ADAB MENDENGAR AZAN" ;D

I REALLY FIND THIS EMAIL FORWARDED TO ME A VERY GOOD RESOURCE FOR US TO BE A BETTER MAN/WOMAN EACH DAY. I HOPE THIS WILL MAKE A SMALL CHANGE IN OUR LIFE. ;D


Jika anda ada satu ilmu dan saya ada satu ilmu, kemudian kita tukar ilmu tersebut, anda ada dua ilmu dan saya ada dua ilmu...
هتاكربو ﷲاةمحرو مكيلع مﻼسلا

ADAB MENDENGAR AZAN

Kematian itu pasti menjelma. Hanya masa dan waktunya yang tidak kita ketahui.

Cuba kita amati mengapa kebanyakan orang yg nazak, hampir ajal tidak dapat berkata apa-apa? Lidahnya kelu, keras dan hanya mimik mukanya yang menahan kesakitan ' sakaratul maut'.

Diriwayatkan sebuah hadis yg bermaksud: 'Hendaklah kamu mendiamkan diri ketika azan, jika tidak Allah akan kelukan lidahnya ketika maut menghampirinya.'

Ini jelas menunjukkan, kita disarankan agar mendiamkan diri, jangan berkata apa-apa pun semasa azan berkumandang . Sebagai orang beragama Islam kita wajib menghormati azan. Banyak fadhilatnya. Jika lagu kebangsaan kita diajar agar berdiri tegak dan diamkan diri. Mengapa ketika azan kita tidak boleh mendiamkan diri?

Lantas sesiapa yang berkata-kata ketika azan, Allah akan kelukan lidahnya ketika nazak. Kita takut dengan kelunya lidah kita semasa ajal hampir tiba maka kita tidak dapat mengucap kalimah 'Lailahaillallah.' yang mana sesiapa yang dapat mengucapkan kalimah ini ketika nyawanya akan dicabut Allah dgn izinNya menjanjikan syurga untuk mereka.

Dari itu marilah kita sama-sama menghormati azan dan mohon kepada Allah supaya lidah ini tidak kelu semasa nyawa kita sedang dicabut.

'Ya Allah! Anugerahkanlah kematian kami dengan kematian yang baik lagi mulia, lancarkan lidah kami mengucap kalimah 'Lailahaillallah' semasa sakaratul maut menghampiri kami.. Amin.. amin... amin Yarobbala'lamin. .'


So I hope this is something good that I can share with you ALIENS AND MARTIANS! As I have a knowledge and you have one, we share and both have two knowledge. :D

That's all for now! :D

Title : Human After All

We all live in a world where we base our very existences on the dreams and the hopes that we hold out for secretly in our minds, unshared but often open to the ones around us who can see into the windows to our souls and read our minds like a book. We dream and we hope, this is no surprise, but with every chimera that we create, we only serve to come one step closer to realizing that not all fabrications will eventually come true, that such pillars of our existence may have never served to support us, but instead have us live for something that was never there, to have us realize that we are human after all.

We dream of worlds where there is no suffering, of a world where peace reigns and bloodshed is nothing but a forgotten page in our history books. We dream of the ability to cease death and promise everyone a life that never ends; a life that would never know the meaning of suffering and foreign to the terms of pain. We dream of reversing time, to correct our faults and to be a better mankind, to bless ourselves with the capacity to never make mistakes again. We dream of being in a better place, where everything is possible, where perfection is key.

But we are human after all.

We dream of being free from our troubles, to live unbounded by the realities of life, to live without worry and the need to fret an unnecessary one. We dream of being the epitome of everything, to be the best and nothing less, of being the one that the world has set its eyes on. We dream of simply living a life that we deem nothing less of faultless, to be in a place that exists in the realms of bliss.

But we are human after all.

All of us have our dreams, our hopes and our wishes, a fabrication of fantasy that consist of both the plausible and the impossible, of our wants and our needs, of what we were to become and what we were never destined to be. Such simple imaginings are nothing of an anomaly to us humans since the dawn of mankind, of thoughts and ideas; co existing with us, their omnipresence frightening to an extent where we are forced to face the truth that there is not an ounce of assurance to such baseless hopes, that dreams will be dreams and hopes will be hopes.

Yet we still hold out for the chance that someday all these will come true, even though disappointment is inevitable for almost everyone of them, we still hold out, for they are the basis of our existence, of what composes us, of what we are and what we will be, and thus we will forever be hoping and having dreams that will never come true.

For we are human after all.

Title : Human Nature

I remember quite some time ago, someone approached me to question about my writing skill. To be frank, I would like to call myself a beginner. As I'm learning and teaching myself to put words carefully, I play around with them. When you have passion for something, no matter how many times you fail it, you will still get up and run for it. To improve.

 As a kid, I've always loved reading. These words on papers were like toys to my eyes. I began to write as young as seven through diaries. The initial purpose was only for the sake of having it since everyone has it. It was from bloghopping that I realized I can make use of this site for good. My writing was bad yet it didn't stop me to continue doing what makes me happy.

I kept getting bad comments which almost knocked me down. What brought me up was I noticed that this is what I love to do. A passion that I can't live without. I'm better at expressing emotions through inks than verbal. I accepted the challenge to improve. I pushed myself to learn, multiply the books I read once a month and continue writing. I thanked my friends and teachers for their help.

Today, even though I still feel worried at delivering something through writing, it won't stop me to continue learning. When you write, you ink it with passion. Opinions from outsiders are the bridge to improve. Whatever you do that cheers you, there's no reason for you to stop doing it. Wherever you go people will always try to bring you down because they're not happy with you. But what else matters if this thing is what makes YOU happy.

There are two things about word that I've learnt. One comes from dictionaries and another comes from each own's definition. When you google or find a word through dictionary, it may give a specific meaning. Usually this applies in terms of formality. Example for school, work or any formal events. While the other part of a word, it comes from a writer. From us. How we would like to define it according to our own story and life experiences.

Easiest example: Define love.

Second thing about writing is listening. Pay attention to everything around you. When opinions were given be it good or bad, accept it. Just like definitions and choices, opinions too have no rights or wrongs. Everyone wants to be heard so listen carefully. A writer doesn't have a characteristic of selfish and arrogant. You don't argue. You listen and accept. It'll make you wiser.

Reading may be important for your grammars and vocabulary. But to me, I don't just read, I learn. Some people think writing is a part of using bombastic words. That is a bonus point. What's really important is how you set your stories and make people understand. Remember, you can't please all readers. Take their critism as a courage to be better. Don't argue, stay kind.

You may do this to let people hear you and read you. But above all, do remember everything starts with a strong passion :)

Title : Theorem

"Love is a potential energy, innate in the bio-structure of every human from birth. Energy, under the law of conservation of energy, cannot be created or destroyed, only converted from one form to another. For example, the kinetic form of love may be a simple hug, a kiss or a thought of them manifested every second for the rest of our lives. It can be a simple prayer that they are well, a smile in their memories or a brazen loyalty for them, even if they are not here anymore.

So love, despite latent is beautiful-limited only by our imagination, nature, and our bravery to accept another."

Title : kegagalan

bukan satu alasan.

Gagal, sebuah perkataan yang kurang senang didengari ramai. Dalam kehidupan luar yang kian mencabar, semestinya semua orang telah merasai kegagalan. Gagal sekali tidak semestinya gagal selamanya. Ambil lah kegagalan sebagai satu daripada beribu cabaran hidup dan buatkan lah ia sebagai anak tangga untuk menuju kekejayaan.

Fikir diluar kotak, jangan jadi seperti katak dibawah tempurung. Tidak semua yang kita mahu, akan kita dapat dan tidak semua yang kita dapat akan kekal selamanya. Ubahkan cara fikiranmu, carilah peluang, dan ambil segala peluang. Kita adalah sama seperti sebutir pasir, memang mudah jadi debu dan ditiup angin. Namun, jika dibentuk menjadi bata yang kuat dan disusun rapi menjadi dinding dan tiang, ia bakal membentuk sebuah pencakar langit yang bisa mempercantikkan lagi permandangan. Menyesal sudah tiada gunanya, sudah takdir. Masa untuk bergerak, bergerak ke kejayaan.

Betul, mungkin kita dipandang rendah, ramai yang tidak mengerti. Tapi cuba kita buang semua itu ketepi dahulu, dan mula berfikir secara positif. Semua manusia mempunyai kelebihan dan kekurangan masing masing, sebagai seorang manusia yang lemah, kita hanya mampu merancang, tetapi ilahi yang mementukannya.

Actually actually lah kan, saya ada sesuatu hendak dikongsi dengan pembaca yang setia membaca, atau pembaca yang sekadar membaca di blog ini. Saya bukan sudah jatuh cinta, tetapi saya sudah terjatuh cinta. Jatuh cinta dengan tidak sengaja, macam mana eh? Bertapa indah rasanya, hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu.

Title : My Cover (:

Hear my cover maher zain - Insha Allah (:
I know its kinda sucks but whatever it is when i sing this song i feel peaceful, alhamdulillah (:

Title : TOP 5

What it takes to be my wife.

I'll now present you my top 5 for what it takes to be my wife, for the ladies out there that's trying to get me, so you think you can be my wife? This is for the future, not now. I've more things to chase than girls, but I think it would be interesting if I share with you guys, or in this case, girls.

5. Cook. 5th on the list is that you girls must be able to cook better than my mom. The reason behind this is that, I just don't want to waste my money on outside food which is unhealthy. Why are you jumping off your seat? Can't cook don't you?

4. Caring. 4th on the list is, my wife should be caring. In case I fall sick, there's someone there beside my bed, taking care of me. Giving me medicine & feed me some delicious bubur ayam. "Sayang, makan sikit sayang." Cair beb, dengar dia cakap macam gitu, dah baik baik sakit jadi sihat walafiat.

3. Faithful. 3rd on the list is that, my wife should be faithful in our relationship. Simple, if you're faithful to me, I'll be faithful to you. Just tell me what you want, I'll buy it for you. How many babies you want, I'll do it for you. But scandal behind my back? Cut you into pieces, cook curry. Well said.

2. Muslimah. 2nd on the list, my wife should be a muslimah, the one that can correct me when I'm wrong, the one that know how to be a good muslimah, the one that could guide my kids. & the first move is wear tudung.

1. The one I love. 1st on the list, the one and only, marrying the one I love. I would only marry the person that I love & suit me, I don't do force marriage, cause it will simply bring me no where, maybe it will end up in a divorce. Simple as that.

Now, do you have what it takes to be my wife? Don't worry I don't practice polygamy. Anyways, nice sharing it with you guys,

Title : MELAYU

Siapa yang salah?

Aku nampak layu dalam melayu. Melayu yang sering segan untuk bertanya perkara yang benar dan sering mencuba pekara yang salah. Bila ditegur, tidak diterima. Orang barat disembah, orang sendiri didengki.

Takkan melayu hilang di dunia. Malu untuk bertanya akhirnya tidak pergi kemana. Bila diejek, rasa dendam. Melayu, cakap orang pandai, tapi diri sendiri tak terurus. Anak muda mula hanyut, manakah tidak anak dimanja, dibelai hingga rosak. Bila ditegur sedikit, marahnya satu kampung.

Rambut hitam berkilat cantik mata memandang, di warnakan perang. Bila di tanya mengapa, jawabnya hanya ikut ikutan. Cita cita melayu tinggi, cakap tahu, kerjanya tidak mahu. Penuh dengan alasan.

Orang ada, semuanya dia mahu, sampai tidak terbayar segala hutang. Bila salah, jarinya ditunjuk ke orang seberang. Fitnah, sudah menjadi satu amalan. Bila bangsa sendiri maju, mula lah cemburu. Cemburu yang tidak bawak kemana. Yang baik bukannya nak diikut, yang jahat di jadikan di pertuan agung.

Sampai bila kita hendak layu, ramai orang sudah tahu. Adakah kita tidak punya rasa malu. Rasa malu yang benar, malu kerana malu.

Kita suka bila mereka mengelakkan kita, bila mereka tolak kita, bila kita dipandang sampah masyarakat. Bodoh. Sampai bila kita hendak sedar, yang kita sedang kecundang.

Sampai bila melayu akan layu?

Title : Selamat Pagi Cinta

buka hatimu, senyum selalu.

Apa itu cinta? Perkataan cinta sahaja, sungguh luas maknanya. Selain dari kasih sayang, cinta juga memerlukan pengorbanan. Cinta itu indah, walaupun tidak dapat dilihat dengan mata kasar. Rasa cinta yang di alami seseorang manusia tidak terkira nikmatnya.

Cinta itu buta. Adakalanya cinta mendorong seseorang manusia untuk membuat sesuatu yang luar dari jangkaan nya. Namun cinta itu juga binasa. Perasaan cinta yang tulen akan berputik sikit demi sedikit dan tanpa di sedari ia akan mengembang seperti bunga yang mekar. Perasaan cinta datang hanya sekali dalam hidup, manakala yang lain hanya permainan hati dan minda sendiri. Jika cinta di tolak, dapat di rasakan bertapa pedih dan sebaknya di hati.

Cinta juga mengajar kita selok-belok dalam kehidupan. Kehidupan yang tidak pernah jauh dari kegagalan. Kadang kala kegagalan itu akan di alami secara berterusan seperti air terjun yang tidak pernah henti mengalir walaupun di halang. Tetapi, kerana dapat merasai kegagalan lah yang telah membuat manusia setapak lebik dekat ke kejayaan.

"Jika gagal, bangkit lah semula. Bangkit dan terus menuju ke arah kejayaan. Kerana gagal adalah satu motivasi hidup." - Tengku Danial


Setiap makhluk yang di ciptai-Nya memerlukan perasaan cinta dan kasih sayang. Perasaan cinta tidak akan pernah pudar buat selama lamanya walaupun halangan dan cabaran sentiasa datang menyekatkan perhubungan. Bertapa kuat nya ia. Itu lah cinta bagi ku. Aku, Tengku.

Title : Time is short

Allahuakbar.

"Berikanku masa, mencuci dosa."

If I was given a chance to think about my pass, I won't. Not because I couldn't but because I don't wanna. The sins that I've done, it's too much. Too much, that If I were to die now, I...

Sometimes, I rather be an animal. Living free, knowing nothing except to survive, die & get a one way ticket to heaven. I'm not that great. I mean, it's hard to explain. The responsibility that god have given to me, as a human, it too much. I'm not complaining. If you know what I mean. As a Muslim I've to pray 5 times a day. Which is hard for me. I'm responsible for every little things that I've done, inside out. It's hard for me to get a complete the 5 full sets of my prayers.

The world is coming to the end soon. I can feel it! I'm not ready & you're not ready. Trust me. How would it be like in the afterlife? I can feel that I'm not going to heaven. I'll fail the test given & will be burn up in hell for thousands of years before I could possibly smell the heaven. I'll be tortured for the sins that I've done.

How I'm going to face god? With tonnes of sins. What will he probably say? Or will he just toss me to his hell which is more than a million time hotter than the sun? Will I die as a Muslim? I want to die as a Muslim. But don't get it wrong. Suicide it one of the biggest sins in Islam. I'm worried & many are. Will my deeds are able to answer those questions that asked in grave?

How will I die? Will it be pain? Or my death will bring embarrassment to my family? I will be left alone. 7 feets down, with no light. When are we going to thank god? For our eyes to see, for our nose to smell, for our ears to hear, for our tounge to taste, for our legs to move, for our heart to live. Thank him for his perfection. When? Lets all pray that we can meet someday in heaven, living peacefully. Getting all you want at an instant. Amin.


"Dear god please forgive me. I have wasted a lot of opportunity
that you have given me. I have always taken things for grunted. I'm greedy with the world that I forgotten about you. The rain that you give us for us to continue our daily work. The sun you gave us to lighten the darkness. The heat you gave us when we are cold.
As a human, I'm not perfect. I make mistakes after mistakes. I can't see you, but you have shown yourself by your prefection. The sky, the clouds, the sea, the earth itself & the universe. I'm not going to heaven straight & I'm confident about that but I still love you! Thanks for giving me a chance to see your beautiful creation."


"Terimalah kembali, wajah ini jangan saling membenci sampai mati. Sedang hari berganti kau mengerti, sedang masa berganda, kau merasa!"

- Tengku Danial

Title : To the one that annoys me most.

Life, life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes in life, things may seem to go smoothly, where everything just falls in place perfectly. At the same time, while things are going perfectly well for one, we must remember and bare in mind that there is someone out there that is struggling and going through obstacles. Thus, by having a mindset as such, we will appreciate and treasure our time of perfectness we may feel.

So there, my friend, you may be in deep sorrow while some are out there smiling on a rainy day like this. Well, you need to know and have faith that every single thing that happens and revolves around you is of god’s decision. Everything has past and is over. Nothing can be changed. Take this as a challenge. This feeling and experience is a phase of life that everyone will have to go through. Your time is now. Fight it off and pick yourself up. Or it might just drag you down. Remember, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Prove that, to YOURSELF.

I also have to say that, by failing we learn our mistakes. Sometimes failing just once won’t be enough for us to identify the steps that we were missing out on or doing wrongly. Thus, we tend to fail again. Nonetheless, keep working towards your goal and never give up. Because ones you do, you are no longer in the game. This then makes you, the loser.

I know the feeling of being a failure, it sucks. It drags your self esteem from way up there down to zero. I’ve been there and time may repeat itself. Then again, isn’t that just a feeling or thought? Change that and you can always be a winner, inside. Being in the state of feeling like a failure once, always gives me the drive to work hard and smart to not be in such a state again. I’ve been in your shoes, maybe not literally. All I am saying is, I understand how you feel, and you can always talk to me.

To my friend that is always a winner in my eyes.

- tengku Danial

Title : motivation

Motivation,
is the best Inspiration

"Just as when you think things are going right, that's where it's wrong. Thinking that you have worked hard but not hard enough. How hard will it take?"

Why does certain people always think that they are the best? Are they the best? You see, the best does not come from you looks, your money or your status. But if you are the best, make sure that you are the best from your heart & you are the best not among the rest but the best among other's eye. You can't judge yourself but others certainly do. Hanging out with the one of the coolest kid in school does not mean that you are cool, but sincerely from my heart, you are like a dog which follows every single details. Why don't you be yourself? Aren't you proud of yourself? Following others is certainly not the best. Come out with your own style cause style will meet it's substances.

Arrogant, a word which have never appeared in the dictionary of my life. Something which a man could not kill it with a gun. Whyarrogant while you can help others. Why are we arrogant?

Jealous, I admit that I used to get jealous every time when I was younger. But hey, people change. Jealous is not that bad. Why? If you are jealous for fashion, looks or chicks, well you're seriously one fucked up bastard. Like porkkk! Please, you may jealous, but jealousfor something reasonable or something which can change your life, something that can bring you far. Like your marks, your studies.

"Kita adalah sama seperti sebutir pasir, memang mudah jadi debu & ditiup angin. Namun, jika dibentuk menjadi bata yang kuat & disusun rapi menjadi dinding & tiang, ia bakal membentuk sebuah pencakar langit yang bisa mempercantikkan lagi permandangan."- Ahmad Danial.

Think about your future & your future will think about you. Kenapa melayu tidak maju? Aku telah huraikan semua. Melayu bukan makna kita layu. Melayu bermakna berani mencapai segalanya. This is what I think, " To be the best, your must challange the best." & myMotivation is the best Inspiration. But I'm not the best.

- Tengku Danial

Title : What's A Crush Worth?

  His hands were shaking. Yes it had been raining since the day before. Yes he was sitting in an air-conditioned area of about 16 degrees celsius. Yes he was in his wet school uniform, sleeves pulled up to the elbow - as usual. But it was a significantly different kind of shaking phenomenon. One that he had never experienced before.

  He looked at the hour and minute hands on his watch for about a minute or so, trying to figure out what time it was. He couldn’t see that clearly past the fog that formed up on the surface of the watch - something  that happened to every one of his many ten-dollar watches when it got too cold - and the fact that he could not read analog time that well didn’t help a bit. Not cool.

  4.05 pm. Just five minutes of waiting. He could’ve sworn it felt like days. Kind of like that last five minutes of a math lesson where the teacher just keeps going on and on about how important math is in our everyday lives; correcting the change you get from the mamak store to three significant figures , calculating the probability you’ll win big money in 4D, finding the volume of those orange and white cones you see on the roads, etc. Simply said, it was too long of a wait. If he could grow a beard, it would’ve grown to chest length at least. At. Least.

  Despite all that, he didn’t mind a bit. For her, he’d wait a lifetime, or so he claims – just like every other victim of teenage love. Just the thought of her would keep his mind relaxed, and his heart warm, from the friction of its excessive beating. Although, he had his doubts.

  “What if she’s just being friendly? Or worse, what if she’s just toying with my feelings? Does she even like me in that sense?” These questions cross his mind as often as people at Orchard Road cross roads. A lot. He wanted to know the answer to these questions, but at the same time, was afraid the answer would be something he didn’t want to hear. Something that would crush his heart into itsy bitsy pieces of decomposing flesh and veins. Not literally though, but that was how he felt like being rejected. Being used. Being unloved.

  Yes, he does have quite a number of admirers and fans, and his self-esteem would probably outweigh both Afdlin Shauki and Adibah Nor on a kitchen scale – and eventually break it - but when it came to a girl he really cared about, he’s hopeless. Just hopeless.

  4.10 pm. The cold got to his head. Like a Slurpee. He couldn’t feel his limbs.

  “hahah, this reminds me of a time I was in London,” he joked to himself. The same line he used to start conversations on cold, rainy days. He knew it was getting old – not to mention it was already damn lame to begin with – but it was all he could come up with under his current circumstances. He contemplated giving up but blew that thought far away as far as Bedok is from Yishun – which is not very far but considerably so – because he knew that if he left that very room, he wouldn’t get to meet her anymore. It was his last chance to confess to her. To tell her how he felt. How much he cared for her.

  5 pm. Still in that same room, still freezing and still holding on to that last strand of hope he had left as if he would fall and die if he let go of it. He heard the door creak. Or he thought he did.

  “Asalamu’alikum, you been here how long?” That voice. That soft tone. That epic fail of a sentence structure.The one he had been longing to hear since about an hour ago. His face lit up almost immediately. He shook his head in response to her question - although it looked more like he was shaking the tiny pieces of frozen rainwater off his short, spiky hair.

  “Wa’alaikumsalam, not really,” he said with a sweet smile etched on his face, “Here, have a seat, I need to tell you something.”

- Tengku Danial