Title : Time is short

Allahuakbar.

"Berikanku masa, mencuci dosa."

If I was given a chance to think about my pass, I won't. Not because I couldn't but because I don't wanna. The sins that I've done, it's too much. Too much, that If I were to die now, I...

Sometimes, I rather be an animal. Living free, knowing nothing except to survive, die & get a one way ticket to heaven. I'm not that great. I mean, it's hard to explain. The responsibility that god have given to me, as a human, it too much. I'm not complaining. If you know what I mean. As a Muslim I've to pray 5 times a day. Which is hard for me. I'm responsible for every little things that I've done, inside out. It's hard for me to get a complete the 5 full sets of my prayers.

The world is coming to the end soon. I can feel it! I'm not ready & you're not ready. Trust me. How would it be like in the afterlife? I can feel that I'm not going to heaven. I'll fail the test given & will be burn up in hell for thousands of years before I could possibly smell the heaven. I'll be tortured for the sins that I've done.

How I'm going to face god? With tonnes of sins. What will he probably say? Or will he just toss me to his hell which is more than a million time hotter than the sun? Will I die as a Muslim? I want to die as a Muslim. But don't get it wrong. Suicide it one of the biggest sins in Islam. I'm worried & many are. Will my deeds are able to answer those questions that asked in grave?

How will I die? Will it be pain? Or my death will bring embarrassment to my family? I will be left alone. 7 feets down, with no light. When are we going to thank god? For our eyes to see, for our nose to smell, for our ears to hear, for our tounge to taste, for our legs to move, for our heart to live. Thank him for his perfection. When? Lets all pray that we can meet someday in heaven, living peacefully. Getting all you want at an instant. Amin.


"Dear god please forgive me. I have wasted a lot of opportunity
that you have given me. I have always taken things for grunted. I'm greedy with the world that I forgotten about you. The rain that you give us for us to continue our daily work. The sun you gave us to lighten the darkness. The heat you gave us when we are cold.
As a human, I'm not perfect. I make mistakes after mistakes. I can't see you, but you have shown yourself by your prefection. The sky, the clouds, the sea, the earth itself & the universe. I'm not going to heaven straight & I'm confident about that but I still love you! Thanks for giving me a chance to see your beautiful creation."


"Terimalah kembali, wajah ini jangan saling membenci sampai mati. Sedang hari berganti kau mengerti, sedang masa berganda, kau merasa!"

- Tengku Danial